life is full of bless

who said life is dull
who said life is meaningless
who said life is about loneliness

sometimes, it's alright to have that kind of thought, but dun be too lazy to go out and see the outside world
life is full of bless

we have stigma that ijipsyen people somehow bad, annoying, disrespectful
i experienced that many time, i feel angry sometime
but relax, take a deep breath and istighfar

we have to change the way we adapting to life
the first picture can make you react in negative way, saying bad about people
then again istighfar and think about that deeply

i have some tips that i always trying to do it to change the way of my thinking and action when people do bad things to me and i receive it in positive way

first, think what will you do if u are in their shoes, if u still think what they did still not make sense
then think what surrounding effect that influencing their life, family background, place etc etc
still, u think its hard to accept why people did that, then laugh alone, its funny there's still have that kind of people in this world and fortunately i meet them right now
then, next time when u experiencing the same condition you will think, 'it's okay, i already meet that kind of people before'.. hahaha

yelah, kadang2 tak faham langsung how can they do that..bla bla..
tak masuk akal rasa.. tapi percayalah itulah manusia, pelbagai ragam

cumanya pengajaran untuk diri sendiri, kalau rasa tak suka apa yang orang buat kat kita, jangan diulang perangai yang sama dengan orang lain pulak. simple

p/s: hari ni happy melangit. alhamdulillah, baba just give me meat u know daging, fresh pulak tu.. daging aqiqah anak baba
how i love to eat meat.. dan rasa sangat bersyukur macam2 cara Allah nak bagi kita rezeki yang tak disangka2.. keke

life story: alone doesn't mean u're lonely

Bismillah

sebenarnya blur2 lagi fikir ape tajuk yang sesuai untuk post ini.. haha

biarkan diri mahu bercerita, yer, lama sungguh menyepi dari singgah ke blog ni.. lama sangat rasa

nak tahu kenapa, sebab dulu kerap menaip di sini kerana selalu rasa keseorangan, feeling lonely tak de siapa untuk diluahkan jika diri macam berserabut dengan macam2 problem.. unstable mode.. hihi

kali ini, menyinggah pon sebab rasa ada free time sikit sebab study leave untuk final first sem dah mula.. hooyah!!

ramai yang tak tahu, atau tahu je kot tapi pelik dan curious..
sekarang ini, i'm staying alone at my lovely house at alex.. i mean, i dun have any housemate..
ramai yang bertanya.. "melly ok ke duduk seorang?" tq ramai yg concern, tapi no need kot
because i'm really happy staying alone like this

pernah terfikir nak duduk sorang2 ni sejak second year lagi, memang waktu tu kalau diingat ujian paling besar dihadapi ketika mula nak survive duduk rumah sendiri.. tapi masih banyak halangan lagi waktu tu dan rasa impossible je

then, i got good housemates during my third year.. syukur sangat time tu walaupun randomly accept diorang punya pelawaan untuk masuk rumah dorang time tu,
unfortunately tak lama lepas tu sebab lepas krisis egypt pada tahun tersebut parents mereka suruh berpindah ke asrama.. but i wont sbb i really hate staying at asrama, by any means banyaklah reason2 nya yg personal dan tak perlu disebut di sini..

then, i got another person get into my house and seriously that house little bit expensive for me staying alone so memang kena cari housemate jugak time tu, tambahan pula baba tuan rumah sangat cekik darah.. tercekik2 tiap2 bulan sampai tahun tu tak keluar travel pon.. huh

but then, something happen, almost the same crisis happen to me just like before (masa 2nd year tu)..
felt like damn crazy.. serabut.. lagi2 masa tu tengah nak exam finale.

diringkaskan cerita, i hate being alone in the presence of many peoples.. get that
macam ni lah maksudnya, kau duduk dengan orang lain, tapi rasa macam kau sorang2..
i prefer being alone and actually i'm really alone, no one around me
instead of i'm in crowded or being with someone that make me invisible, no offense.. fuhh
yeah, i cannot tell more than this.. demi menjaga kemaslahatan bersama dan tidak membuka aib siapa2. tapi that thing is the worst thing happen in my life..

kemudian cahaya bersinar datang, i got the solution, someone promoted about this house and the condition not that bad.. during that time, i'm desperately need to move.. DESPERATELY.. keke

alhamdulillah, semua urusan dipermudahkan, ada la duit lebih sikit nak bayar untuk urusan pindah bagai ni
mula2 tu macam rasa unbelievable..
bayang lah dari urusan akad rumah, pindah, basuh rumah, kemas brang, beli barang sume settle sendiri.. but i made it.. i did all the stuffs and everything going smoothly
ada la jugak certain2 benda i'm asking help from my dearly friend, Auni and her housemates merangkap jiran paling dekat dgn umah dan paling tak lokek menghulurkan bantuan..

so far, right now tak de masalah la dengan rumah ni kecualilah baru2 ni 'cik ti' datang menumpang seminggu kat rumah, selamat baba dah bunuh, time tu tunggang terbalik jugak la hidup sebab habis pakaian, brg2 dikencingnya.. cess

yeah,memang nampak macam duduk sorang2 tapi tak terasa macam tu sangat.. dunia tanpa sempadan di hujung jari ajer.. ada internet, laptop.. settle! hihi
it feels more like i'm free.. rasa bebas, tak terikat dengan siapa2 dan tak menyusahkan siapa2

and when our soul is calm and in good condition, our heart and mind will easily open to see many good things happen around us
i can make friend with many good and nice peoples
i can talk freely with any ammu atau pakcik kedai bila beli brg
i can go anywhere alone without wasting time waiting for others or others waiting for me
i can eat and cook anything i want to eat

takde dah nak sakit2 kepala nak fikir kena jaga hati housemate sebab housemate pon takde.. keke
takde dah nak serabut2 tahu masalah atau aib orang yang takde kaitan dgn diri kita

dan bila berjumpa dengan kawan2 kat kelas ke, time program ke (bila rajin lah,haha) atau bila ber SC (usrah) rasa akan lebih menghargai mereka sebab jarang2 jumpa
so, xde lah nak buang masa gaduh2, terasa2 hati, berdendam ke apa..
hidup terasa lebih aman dan sempurna.. eceh~

kita belajar dari pegalaman hidup..

pengalaman mendewasakan dan mengubah cara berfikir kita

siapa yang tak merasai, tidak akan pernah mengerti

dan kita tak perlu pun meminta siapa2 mengerti kita kerana bila kita yakin kita ada Allah di sisi kita, tak ada istilah 'rasa sendiri' pon dalam kamus hidup kita.

cumanya, keluarlah dari kepompong aura negatif yan juga akan menegatifkan orang sekeliling

carilah jalan atau cara yang dapat menjadikan diri kita sentiasa positif dan berlapang dada untuk melakukan sesuatu

bila diri sudah positif, kita akan sentiasa terbuka untuk memberi dan berbakti untuk agama, bangsa dan negara

Personality test: Are You An Optimist, A Pessimist Or A Realist?

"You tend to be more of a pessimistic person. You don't believe in happy endings and that everything will be better tomorrow, you know better than that. You know that our life is not always in our control, and that we are all vulnerable. That knowledge enables you to live a rather disappointment-free life. You're not necessarily a non-happy person or depressed, not at all. You just expect the worst, and then you're more excited when something good happens, eventually. And good things DO happen from time to time.."

yeah.. expect the worse in order not to be frustrated too much..

life is not about being unhappy all the time but to be happy with the person that worth it.. with my beloved one, my parents, my family, my friends~

that's how i live.. and after something happen be realistic to accept the situation