I am introvert. so what?

sumber : http://playfullytacky.com/2014/07/16/things-you-should-know-about-introverts/

Things You Should Know About Introverts

1) We need to recharge alone. 
This right here is the cusp of the entire introvert v. extrovert debate (if there is one, anyway) – Introverts need to be alone to recharge. We tend to get completely worn out by socializing. This is basically what it means to be an introvert.

 2) We don’t hate being around people, but we probably hate crowds.
I love being with people, but if you drop me into a large crowd I instantly feel like I’m alone and invisible. I try to avoid situations where I feel that way,so I may decline your open invitation to some random event. It doesn’t mean I don’t like to be around you, it just means I like to have more control over my surroundings.

3) We don’t mind silence.
 I can sit beside you in silence and not think we are having a bad time. This is especially true on road trips and can be a little confounding to true extroverts. For this reason, I especially like going to the movies where it is already considered rude to chat. Rule #1 for dealing with introverts – Don’t tell me I’m “too quiet.” I hate that. Sorry I’m making you uncomfortable, but you really don’t get to decide how much I have to talk.

4) Just because we are introverted doesn’t mean we are shy.
 Introvert and shy are actually two different things. Google it! In my case, I’m a shy introvert (the double whammy!).

5) We can turn on an extroverted personality when necessary, but it is especially draining. 
See #1 and #2. I have no problem getting up in front of a group of people and giving a talk. I don’t even get nervous by a question and answer period. But – here is the thing – I will need major recharge time afterwards and I won’t be able to keep up this extroverted illusion all day. I can turn it on to dazzle a crowd, but if you take me out for lunch afterwards, I’ll probably just listen to you talk. Iam an excellent listener.

6) We aren’t judging you. 
See #3. Did I get quiet? Do I have a mean look on my face? I’m not judging you; I’m just wrapped up in my thoughts with my bitchy-resting-face on. I might have even forgotten you were there. Sorry, just poke me. I didn’t do it on purpose.

7) We secretly love it when you cancel plans. 
I like being with you, but finding out I suddenly don’t need to be “on” and it wasn’t actually me that backed out? – priceless! Don’t worry if you have to cancel, I’m probably thrilled to be able to stay in my pajamas.

8) We can get very wrapped up in our own thoughts. 
My inner monologue is epic. When you have a strong monologue constantly running in the background, it is pretty easy to settle-in and listen for a while. I have to work through things in my head before I proceed, so I usually need a few minutes. When I’m ready to move forward though, I am 100% on top of it!

9) We can be pretty bad at connecting. 
You know when you have had a really bad day and you just want to call up a friend and chat? Yeah, I’m bad at that. I tend to wait for extroverts to reach out and include me, so when the time comes that I need support, I can be a bit lost.

10) We don’t like to hang around. 
That time after an event or meeting ends and stragglers hang around to talk – yeah, I know this is the perfect time to make more plans, connect with new people, and get involved with future projects, but I really really really hate this. I’m probably already checking my phone in my car before you have even picked up your purse. Small talk with strangers is my kryptonite.

11) We have strong opinions. 
Just because I have difficultly sharing them sometimes doesn’t mean I don’t have opinions. Give me an extra minute to compose my thoughts and I will continue to push myself to speak up sooner. It is a give and take here.

p/s: here i did another peronality test and the result showed : (at http://www.humanmetrics.com/hr/JTypesResult.aspx )

Introvert(67%) Sensing(1%) Feeling(25%) Judging(33%) 
You have distinct preference of Introversion over Extraversion (67%)
You have marginal or no preference of Sensing over Intuition (1%)
You have moderate preference of Feeling over Thinking (25%)
You have moderate preference of Judging over Perceiving (33%)

Personality test : What kind of woman are you?

http://www.quizony.com/what-kind-of-woman-are-you/result.html

INTELLECTUAL. *deng

Intelligent, thoughtful and reflective, you are given to speculation. You love a good book but you also love a fascinating conversation that lasts deep into the night. You tend to be more rational than creative. You live the life of the mind. Just don't forget you have a body too

Personality Test:What Type of Woman Are You Really?

http://www.playbuzz.com/jennifers/what-type-of-woman-are-you-really

The Independent Womanyou are true independent woman! You love and live for accomplishing goals on your own. You don't like to rely on others for a thing you can do by yourself, but you also know there's no shame in asking for help from time to time. You take great pride in your many accomplishments, because you know they are yours and no one else's. You go girl.this is really myself..huahua

Personality test: Are you sunrise or sunset?

http://survley.com/result/are-you-sunrise-or-sunset.html

I am SUNSET..

" You are friendly, outgoing and easily distracted"
I am really friendly, talkative with my old friends, I mean with my bestie during middle school, as they know better about me, and I'm very comfortable to be myself as I'm with them. No judging, no hypocrite life.
Easily distracted, I think most of people like this right.

"It takes you a while to get going during the day. What you lack in productivity you may up for in imagination."
Because I'm indoor and homey person. Staying at home is better and peaceful. no sunlight and hotness that make me really uncomfortable, as I can say I'm a winter girl and my friend calling me 'puteri lilin'. lol

"You are very creative."
hurmm... I'm creative in modifying something already made. As to make a new thing, I'm actually not that creative, but to change it and make it better I can be so creative. hahaha

" You are natural rebel, and you don't like following anyone else's rules."
Natural rebel? yes, I agree this so much because during my middle school, I'm a group of girl of great troublemaker. As for now, if i think that rules is nonsense, I will never ever follow it unless the rules come from Allah, from my religion. but human's rules is not applicable for me to follow it if I dun like it.

"You are successful on your own terms. Many find you to be an inspiration"
maybe for my junior. but I think that's many better person to be inspired rather than me. kihkih :p

You Are

Sunset

You are friendly, outgoing, and easily distracted. It takes you a while to get going during the day. What you lack in productivity you may up for in imagination. You are very creative. You are a natural rebel, and you don't like following anyone else's rules. You are successful on your own terms. Many find you to be an inspiration.

Personality test: How do you live you life?

http://survley.com/result/how-do-you-live-your-life.html

You Live Your Life : Silently

"You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside"
so true, as it's the best way to live my life right now. dun let it show, dun let them know what inside my heart. if anything go wrong, i prefer to tell them straightforward rather that back-talking.

"You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently"
because i dun want to hurt others as i dun want other hurting me. easy right?

"You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friend quickly"
omo omo, so true, because having the same friend all the time, it's make me suffocate. I like variation, not to keep the routine and it make me easily give up and boring. fuhh~
I dun like to keep meeting the same person 24hour, so i dun know how I can adapt with this situation when I getting married one day, facing my husband's face all the time. lol.. (but I'm the type of loyal girl ok)

"You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable"
yeah, if Ilist out all my dreams, people will be shocked as I really have many big dreams that i dun know myself if i can achieve it or not.

Personality test: 4Fs - "flirtatious, fearless, factual or friendly"

http://survley.com/result/are-you-flirtatious-fearless-factual-or-friendly.html

my result is : THE FACTUAL..

"You are highly intelligent, especially in areas that deal with concrete knowledge and facts."
oh well,that's why my path is medicine. lol

"You are amazingly analytical. You can make sense of chaos without involving your emotions"
actually I want and try to be professional, as long dealing with my work, I can be so professional and perfectionist.

" If anything, you tend to be overly logical."
hurmmm~

"It's sometimes hard for you to come to a decision, because you're too busy weighing all the options"
ohh, i know this is my big concerns. As my friend always get angry with me when the time to make a decision, so nowadays, i trying to make it easy by weighing it in tables as to differentiate the pro and cons of the decision I will make. haha

"People turn to you in times of trouble. They know that they can trust you to give good, well thought out advice"
maybe true, but actually i'm not the type of person to get involve with other's problem, unless they come to me to get the advice. I will try my best to give the good one, but I dun care if they want to follow it or not. It's up to them

Personality test: Social Skill test

This is the result of my social skill test at this link

Comfort in Social Situations

10

"Social situations don't bring out the best in you - you just don't feel at ease in circumstances in which you are expected to mingle.

Even with the best of social skills, someone who is not comfortable among a group of people will have difficulty being himself or herself, and you may feel that this is the case with you. Your discomfort may have arisen as a result of being self-conscious of the way you act around others. 

This hesitation can create an uncertain vibe around you, making it less likely that people will approach you because of your uncomfortable demeanor. 

It doesn't have to be this way, however. Like learning to drive or working a muscle, being comfortable in social situations takes time to develop. Don't let this discourage you, and don't allow uncomfortable social situations you faced in the past to sidetrack you. Keep working on your social skills and exposing to yourself to new social situations, a little bit at a time."

Get to know myself : intro

First of all..
I wanna use this blog for me to know better about myself

ni kira main ala ala selebriti gitu walaupun xpernah ada niat nak jadi artis ke selebriti ke ape.hihi

it looks like there's some questionnaire and interviewer..  hehe
i need to answer the question to know better about myself

OK, S.T.A.R.T~

Q: Can you briefly introduce yourself?
Me: Assalamualaikum, first of all, my name is Nuramalina Yahaya. I am Malaysian,  live in Taman Melati, Kuala Lumpur. Now, I'm studying medicine in Faculty of Medicine Alexandria University,Egypt in fourth year.

Q: How about your educational background?
Me: haha, cliche question. my kindergarten at Tadika ABIM Bukit Tunku, KL..  then, my primary school is SERI Al-Huda, Gombak..  my middle school at Maahad Tahfiz Sains,Tanah Merah Kelantan. kira setakat ni lulusan SPM jelah, sebab tengah progression nak habiskan degree in medical field lagi dua tahun lagi.dua tahun..hua~

Q: your family?
Me: saya anak kelima dari 9 adikberadik, kakak sulung dlm family.. emak dan abah dua2 dah bersara..  yeah..
ada 3 adik perempuan dan sorang adik laki,  4 orang abg dah berkahwin, so obviously sekarang saya ada 4 kakak ipar juga dan 6 anak buah,  tengah tunggu timing nak masuk 7..  it's just i really love my big family..
dan actually adik perempuan saya ada sorang yg meninggal masa kecil..

Q: anything else you want to say about yourself?
Me: just when people meet me in the first time, i always get bad impression from them. just relax,  take a breath and we sit together for longer period and then you will know me better that i'm not that bad as you think of me at the first place. bahasa mudahnya, i dun care if people wanna have bad impression of me, but bila lama duduk bersama, percayalah saya sebenarnya sangat okey dengan org yg betul2 rapat dengan saya, lain 360 darjah.  ha,amek kau..hahaha

Q: what do you mean by 'bad   impression'?
Me: it's like they will think i'm the type yg sombong, garang, dan sangat ignorant..  tapi itu sebenarnya sy hanya jadi pendiam dan awkward dengan stranger atau org yg xberapa kenal. tapi bila dah jadi kawan, always together, they will get to know my true self, gila2, banyak cakap, bising dan comel.  eh   :p



okey, i think thats enough for the intro..hihi
hopelfully this game will be more interesting next time
as when i grow older and review back this game, it will give the good memory about how i am back then..

keep smiling and enjoy the way you are, or in other word say alhamdulillah for everything you have and don't :)

k, bye

fuhhh~~

bad time~ fuhh

see, i start with negative word, so shuh shuh if you don't want to immerse with my miserable

so, just want to say
if you get to know someone that you can call as friend
and you also think he/she as your friend
but when both of you got a problem, that friend will say "i want to leave you, because you are so miserable"
you think you"ll need that kind of person as your friend?

as a first time,it's really hurt
but when the same thing keep happen, it's just whatever~
if you want to go, you can go..I don't care anymore

because in my opinion it's normal in any relationship you get some fight
maybe the conditions were different, either a big fight or just simple one
then, when time flies, both of you got better and be in normal relationship again
but when you have a fight then you think you want to separate,or go away
it's the end~ finish.. fuh

so, if for you finish a relationship is a good thing, just go on

as for me, I don't need to have that kind of people be with me
in another word, that is hypocrite and i hate it
because when you are good, you'll be with him/her
and when not, you'll just leave her/him.. what the..~
and you think that way will settle your problem
but for me, the problem will got bigger
as I will never want to see again people who are easily leave me
now, I don't understand why people nowadays are easily to get divorce
because there's people like this..hua~

and one thing, when other people telling you that he/she need sometime on their own
why you just let them be
why must tell them " not only you have problems, other people have problem too"
if you got other problem, i also disagree if you make innocent people involve in your problem
but if the problem is 'you' yourself
I think that people really need time to heal himself, to make reflection

yelah, kalau buka mulut at last menyakitkan hati orang baik diam
dan diri sendiri pulak kena sedarlah kalau dah jenis sensitif tu,
sape nak bercakap dengan orang yang cakap sepatah terasa hati
baik diam, am I right?

bagi aku, normal lah setiap orang minta masa untuk diri sendiri
untuk reflection
memang perlukan masa lah
daripada berdepan lepas tu bertamabah2 menyampah dan benda kecik makin jadi lagi besar

I don't care if i have to live alone, rather be with people like that
easy come, easy go
so bye ya..
once you go, I will never want to see you again. seriously
but if you stay and
and the time will pass, I think all the problem will solved
and it will be okay, either not so okay like before or maybe better than before
as for me if you leave, it never will be like before
because i already experienced it once.

p/s: i really hate you, because you mess up everything during my study leave.
I need to focus.focus..huaa~~
and actually I'm really angry at first, then I reflect myself I'm wrong and I ask you I need time, but when you replied like that, it's really frustrating as I'm trying my best not to worsen the situation by being silent.
but it's ok, just do as you wish

membenci jangan

assalamualaikum..

haha..

smile dulu :)

[sesi tazkirah]
kita banyak buat salah dengan orang
dengan parents, family, kawan2

buat salah dan dosa dengan Pencipta lagilah tak terhitung banyaknya

semenjak dua menjak ini, banyak tazkirah peringatan berkenaan TAUBAT

seperti yang diketahui syarat2 taubat ada TIGA dan extra SATU lagi kalau kita buat salah dengan manusia..
cuba buka link ini

so, kesimpulannya kena sentiasa muhasabah diri dan bertaubat kepada Allah
dan juga kepada manusia yang ada buat salah mohonlah kemaafan
dan yang utama maafkan orang lain dahulu sebelum ingin dimaafkan oleh orang lain :)

[contengan hati]
kenapa entah, memang sifat diri
walaupun kadang2 rasa benci je dengan diri sendiri, suka sangat bercerita dengan orang lain pasal diri sendiri walaupun tahu je orang tak nak dengar pon..haha

sejujurnya, saya ramai rakan2.. rakan sebatch, rakan sebilik, rakan seusrah
tapi kawan~ saya tak ada kot..macam lone ranger la pulak kan
entahlah..selalu konfius dan dilema..~
sebab kebelakangan ini ramai orang bercakap dan bertazkirah pasal ukhwah..
dan ketahuilah ukhwah terbaik adalah ukhwah yang diikat dengan ikatan aqidah..
tapi saya dah lama tak rasa kemanisan itu, mungkin sebab sifat semulajadi manusia yang tak pernah rasa cukup ataupun ada something wrong somewhere inside myself
tipulah tak pernah rasa keindahan ukhwah islamiyah itu, pernah..memang sangat manis..
tapi itu dulu~ sekarng? entahlah, no comment
benda ini melibatkan dua pihak, tak semudah mulut berbicara daripada betul2 nak practice

i know there's a lot of nice people around me, alhamdulillah dikelilingi oleh orang2 yang baik2
tapi at one point, mesti akan ada satu garisan panjang menjadi benteng pemisah
dan cukup aku dan mereka baik, senyum beramah mesra, bergurau senda
tapi bila masuk part berkongsi rasa, i will left behind.. eceh, bajet
and again i act as ignorant,strong girl
deep down inside, sakit juga bila kita diabaikan atau dengan kata lain orang berbisik2 depan kita cerita rahsia, problem bagai

sampaikan bila tahap i feel like i am okay in all these situation and tell to myself no need to take part in other's problem *sound selfish right
yeah, inilah mode ignorant paling bahaya yang ada dalam diri, rasa serik dengan orang sekeliling
ada kisah pahit di sebalik keserikan saya ni masa high school dulu
and i starting to enter my 'gua'
time tu, ada lah mereka2 yang datang menjadi insan yan paling caring atas dunia
but it seems awkward to me..really mean it
yeah, i feel guilty sometimes.. i'm not a good friend and of course i will not get any good friend too..ahha
again, i have many good peoples around me, but someone i feel secure like i'm with my family is no one

ada satu tazkirah ni saya dengar,
status ukhwah kita reflect status iman yang ada dalam diri kita
ouch, lagi lah broken heart..
muhasabah balik, reflect there's something wrong with my iman...

but i had no problem to help any of my friends if they need me,seriously :)
i'm not that bad..muehehe

dan maybe lah kesibukan dalam dunia medic yang superb ni lagi menambah2 kan rasa sepi
okey, sepi si okay, i like it.. cumanya rasa didiskriminasikan itu pahit..

ada kawan kata ego saya tinggi
yeah, my friends around me tak pernah tengok saya menangis depan mereka
perlu ke cerita dan tunjuk bila time saya menangis keseorangan
itu antara saya dan Dia
saya akui sangat susah menangis sebab orang lain, i mean bila ada problem camne dan disakiti teruk mana oleh manusia lain saya payah menangis
yet i still crying when i'm in troubles, masalah dengan hati sendiri, masalah dengan diri sendiri bilamana mula rasa benci dengan diri sendiri, hidup miserable..huhu

motif membebel di sini?
buat yang membaca dan mengenali diri ini
nak minta maaf banyak2,
saya bukan kawan yang baik untuk kalian

saya tak harap disukai, cukup sekadar jangan membenci
orang kata saya garang, kuat moody..then semua lari
ataupun bila mood baik, jadi gila2 sikit, mula lah sometimes people start to make me like a person-with-no-feeling..huh!

itu tak masuk lagi part makhluk berlainan jantina, itu cerita lain kali..haha

sebenanrnya hidup ini tak adalah sedih sangat, buat gaya terover sadis dan touching je lebih..
i am happy to be me and to be with them..

nasihat saya, don't expect too much from me even meaning of my name is 'our hope'
but 'our' tu more refer to my family,my parents..not u guys yang obviously lagi hebat dari diri yang tak seberapa ini..huahua

buat yang pernah terasa hati dengan kata2 harsh saya, perangai moody saya, jelingan tajam saya
harapnya jangan disimpan dalam hati

sebab sifir hidup saya mudah, kalau yang saya lepas direct tu biasanya saya dah lupakan pun apa yang saya marah tu
tapi kalau saya diam je, itu lagi bahaya berkemungkinan besar saya ingat sampai mati punca kemarahan saya itu..
ok ok, kena kurangkan marah, marah dari syaitan
tapi i am growing and still growing, membaiki diri dan terus mendaki
yang kurang dari diri itu namanya manusia

harapan saya jangan pernah membenci~~